*~* LoVe *~*

We had Kenzie's baby shower on Valentine's Day, which I thought was cute (some people complained...but such is life!). My Mom organized and hosted it for Kenzie and I. There were fun games and prizes of course and lots of cute and thoughtful gifts from all the wonderful people in our life. Kenzie, like a newborn does, slept through the whole shower. I woke her up at the end so we could get pictures of her. =)

Mae, Debbie & Amanda

Amanda & Riki Bean (a.k.a: Auntie Bean)

Jade, Toyoko & Kari

The beautiful Pendelton blanket from my Mom.


My Girls are soooo lucky to have such an awesome Mammie!

My Sweet Valentines

It's my party and I'll cry if I want to!

Love for Two!

During my pregnancy I was extremely nervous about how Nautika and I would react to a new baby. She was Ben and I's everything for 2 years and all of a sudden that love was going to have to be shared. Could I really love another child like I love Nautika, my 1st born??? It seemed so impossible until the day Kenzie was born. I soon learned it was possible to have that same, yet so different, love for two different people. I remember when Nautika walked into the hospital room after Kenzie was born and looking over at my Husband showing Nautika his new baby sister and the look on both of their faces brought tears to my eyes. Here was my family, my world, my everything and I just knew it was all going to be okay.

Pictures, pictures and more pictures.

The following are pictures from the hospital the day after Kenzie was born.

Look how careful he is being.

Our Midwife, Dawn. Love this lady!

Mammie and Kenzie

She nursed so well at first, then decided to be stubborn. =*(

I could just eat her up.

Another Daddy's Girl already.

(it kind of looks like Ben has just a mustache!) =P

She DID NOT like the bath!

Precious

Such a good Big Sister.

Pure bliss

This is one of my favorite pictures.

Look at those proud grandparents.

Mommy Kisses

Sound asleep.

Gotta love the baby feet.

Auntie Umma made Kenzie her 1st pair of moccasins.

Kenzie Jade Brown

It was Thursday and I had my regular weekly appointment at 4:30pm. The week before I was dilated to a 3, so this time I was hoping I might be a little further along. Well I wasn't but my blood pressure was up and had protein in my urine so my Midwife, Dawn, said "ok, I guess you can have this baby". At first I didn't understand what she meant and then she told me Janet (best nurse ever) was getting me a wheelchair to bring me over to the hospital (it's their policy). Still kind of taken back I said "you mean like right now??!!??". Instantly I was scared, scared shit less! I called my Mom while Janet was wheeling me over and then called Mae to come get Nautika. I was all checked in and in my room by 6:00pm. My nurse came in and informed me I was Strep-B positive and needed two rounds of antibiotics before I gave birth. While she was getting ready to put my IV in I had my first contraction. I had the first round of antibiotics and she started the second round and also pitocin to pick up the contractions. The contractions started to get pretty intense right away. My goal was to do this birth without pain medication and told Ben if I asked for it to talk me out of it. I was breathing through them pretty well with the help of my amazing Husband. All of a sudden I looked up and said "I think I peed"! =) My Mom went to get the nurse and when she came in she confirmed that my water had just broke. haha......embarrassing! So she checked me again and I was dilated to a 4. Now the contractions definitely started to pick up and I kicked everybody out except my Mom and Ben and the nurse of course. It was probably around 9:00pm by this time and I was in PAIN. I breathed through about an hour more of intense contractions and started to feel a lot of pressure so I had the nurse check me. I was dilated to a 6.....a frickin 6!!! I couldn't believe it all this pain and only a 6. I got discouraged and upset and asked for the epidural. Ben, like I had asked him, tried talking me out of it but I was soooo tired and knew if I was only a 6 it would be at least another couple of hours of this. The nurse and my Mom left the room to let us discuss it. Ben kept telling me that "there wasn't time" and "I had come this far" and I kept say "I know, I know. but I'm soooo tired." Well after about 10 minutes of "discussing" it I felt her coming out. I jumped back on the bed and Ben ran and got the nurse. She came in, looked down there and shouted for the nurse to call Dawn NOW!! The nurse looked at me and said when I have a contraction to blow out and try not to push.....TRY NOT TO PUSH....WHAT???!!!??? She kept reassuring me and said she has done this before and everything will be okay (I think she was trying to reassure herself more than me though). I just kept saying "where's dawn, where's dawn?". I had to blow trough about 4 contractions when Dawn came bursting through the door. She sat down, put her gloves on and said push and I did just that. All it took was one and a half pushes and Kenzie Jade was placed on my chest. It all happened SO fast I didn't know what to do. So I just cried! I was just a 6 not even 30 minutes earlier and was about to give up on my goal. It must of been Kenzie's way of saying 'you can do it Mom!' =)
Kenzie Jade Brown was born on January 29, 2009 at 10:32pm. She weighed 7 lbs. 2 oz. and 20 in. long (exact same as Nautika!). She had lots and lots of dark hair and was absolutely perfect in every single way!

It's been too long!

Well, I haven't blogged in forever, last November to be exact. I don't know why. In my head I wanted to but could never actually sit down and do it and am kickin myself in the ass for it. So the next few post will be a quick recap of stuff while I was AWOL from blogging!